The inspiration to draw has finally come back, but as I sat down at the computer to actually get something at least sketched out, I realized something. I am HORRIBLY out of practice. I've been so busy with everything else that I've basically stuck to photography and photo-manipulation.

So until I get back on the road to recovery, you'll be seeing my scraps gallery fill up, while I re-learn anatomy, and how to properly use my tablet.

*Sigh.*

So I wanna go as a zombie on halloween... definitely going trick-or-treating with mah babies, but also going out to the last-night-open of Cocktails and Dreams. Yeah, they're shutting the bar down. T_T

Anyways... I don't just wanna go as "a zombie". I wanna go as a zombie that has a backstory. Suggestions so far are:

-Ninja Zombie
-Pirate Zombie
-Alice (from Resident evil, if she was turned instead of kicking butt) zombie
-Pharmacy Tech zombie

Anyone else got a suggestion? Keep in mind, I have random clothing around the house to make practically anything (last time I checked, I even had an old prison uniform shirt that Will wore at one of his jobs a LONG while back)... plz make suggestions. It'd be awesome. Or just vote on a previous suggestion.

Thanks in advance.

What does Wal-Mart do RIGHT before Halloween? Shut down the freakin' sewing and materials section of their store nearest to Hampton. What the heck are you guys thinkin'.

UGH. I really wanted to make Tonya a custom blue fairy costume this year too. T_T

So last night, I had a long talk with myself over how this was gonna pan out... specifically, how I was gonna tell my mom that I found my father. [link]

I had not seen "Skip" (as he is known by all) for 18 years. He and his brother tracked me down through myspace last week, and I met him at Cocktails and Dreams (the bar I used to work at) this past saturday. It has been completely and totally surreal. Speechless doesn't even cut it.

I really had so many questions for him, so much to talk about, and I think we covered everything over the weekend. He's told me that he'll be trying to pay back the thousands in child support that he owes me, over time of course... he's doing everything he can to bring us back together.

The biggest thing was trying to tell my mother. I finally just said, "If I don't do it now, then I'll never be able to." I was expecting a "stay away from him" or "oh god no, if you see him you'll never hear from me again", basically the worst-case-scenario was on my mind. As it turns out, my mom DID prepare herself for this a long time ago, though she never really thought it would happen. She knows that I'm an adult, that I'm a parent, and that I'm free to meet who I want to meet. And that I should never hesitate to call her for anything we need to talk about. Unless I have a sex change.

Hi. I'm Carl. XD

So now my little sister knows already, and mom's gonna talk to my stepdad and grandpa about it. All went better than expected.

but I'm not saying what it is yet.

It's made me happy, but it's definitely going to hurt certain people that don't know yet. And I mean, it's a BIG thing too. No, I'm not pregnant, no I'm not getting divorced... once I tell the people that it's gonna hurt the most, I'll post it here.

And trust me, I'm scared to tell them. I don't know how they'll take it, I just hope they knew it was coming.

On a happier note, Tonya's teacher is coming at 8AM tomorrow... it's 2:30am now, and I'm wide awake trying to figure out how to break this to everyone. I couldn't be more happy about this situation, but I know it's gonna throw everyone else for a loop.

CHRIST. I just wanna blurt it out right here, but those certain people know about this blog. And I really don't want them to find out through this.